A writer discusses their fascination with siddurim and mahzorim, finding them to be vehicles for constant conversations with G-d and sources of guidance and exploration. They appreciate the extensive commentary and translations in these prayer books, which help them confront their own beliefs and gain a deeper appreciation for holidays. The writer also explores different types of siddurim, including educational ones that encourage readers to think about broader concepts and apply prayer to everyday life. They find solace and companionship in these books, even if they don't provide all the answers or eradicate doubt and skepticism.